Steh auf wenn du am Boden bist!

"Steh auf wenn du am Boden bist" is a German say. It means "get up if you're on the floor". And me... yes I have spent way too much time on the floor...
I have always been the one who told to people not to worry, if they really wanted something they could get it if they were ready to fight for it... And now I say it to myself again. I finished my erasmus, I finished my studies, I finished my work contract and I finished my amazing winter holidays in Spain. I sat on the plane to fly back home, and in that moment I realised that my future is empty.
I had exams, I had to work, I had to travel... Now there's nothing I have to. Yes I could look for a job, but why should I? I cannot think of myself here, in my hometown, bored as shit, working 8 hours per day and spending all of the money travelling away from here.
I will just get out of here.
I want to take back the happiness that I left Vienna.
I want, I want, we all want so many things, but most of the time we want it while we lye on our bed, or while we're having a chat with a friend. Gandhi said that "the difference between what we do and what we are capable of doing would suffice to solve most of the world's problems", and I've never read a quote that was so right.

After 15 days made of 15 hours sleep 2 hours eat 6 hours chat with my friends and browse all airline websites I decided that I really had to do something, I must get myself out of here, I want to live my life! I want to wake up near the person I love, stand up and see that out of my window there is an amazing city to discover, a city full of chances: new people, new work, new language, new friends, new activities..well, a new life!

So, I stood up from the floor and wrote down what I wanted to do. I was a bit scared, because the plan ended up like "I'm gonna collect as many job interview as possible and I am going to Munich for them. They will hire me: perfect. They will not hire me: I'll keep searching. I am ready to 'throw' myself, and I'd do anyhing in order to achieve the goals I set".

But it took time to click on the botton "buy". Then I thought about something! I actually spent a lot of time in my life tring to become more German, more Scandinavian, but actually the very lucky events of my life have made me more Andalucian... Therefore I questioned myself "ey, ¿no hay huevos?" and I bought the ticket straight away...
I explain: asking "¿no hay huevos?" is truely challenging, it literally means "got no balls?" and when someone says it to you, you're practically bound to do what has been said to do.

Now, I am pretty proud of myself. Hay huevos, and I am moving to make a change in my life. I think it is something normal to do, but many of us are scared, they're scared of the unknown, they should just let go and think that most of the time in the unknown there are the most precious things we can meet. We should never afraid of the adventure, our own life should be a masterpiece (yes, Oscar Wilde) and if it's not us working on it, who should? God? Bha, he has never been seen, as far as I know.

I have seen my grandmothers telling me that life should go like study->get married->have kids->take care of them->teach them how to live their life according to the standads->wait to die, and I've see those women very unhappy at age 50 when their kids were gone, I've seen them realising that they lived their life wrong because they haven't thought about their own happiness, they just adapted to the standards and did what they were told to.

We must be different.

Being happy is so easy, you just have to try all, until you understand what is it that you like, and then you just have to chase the things you like.
I've heard of a book called "Into the wild", its writer says:
"So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun."
and I agree with him.

I could be a living proof that this lifestyle is pretty good.
We never know, unless we try.
I'm leaving in 2 days.